Horrors of The Pull-Out Method

I won't be ignorant and say that everyone has tried the pull-out method, but for those who tried it with someone that's not random, but with someone you wouldn't consider being with long term knows my agony.

Skipping through the action, but the moment when you get out and release a stream of body fluids either on her or lords where else beside in her you enjoy 10 seconds of satisfaction before those thoughts creep in. You know, all those things you were taught in human growth start repeating in your head till the point where you can probably give a dissertation on reproductive process and how pre-ejaculation is real.

You're on one side of the bed and she's on the other, you don't know what's going on in her head, but yours is wandering. You're thinking about past dudes she could've been with, how can I ask her if she's on a pill, and a multitude of other things. I'm thinking I really don't see her income going up, I just had a nice come up a few months prior and I'm not trying to be on no Child's Support, and I'm thinking why did am I sticking it in girls like this!

Then she says you're suppose to hold me and I'm like, "I don't like being touched and I don't think it's right for you to sleep over here." I'm paranoid as shit and she proceeds to attempt to start pillow talking about her ex from three weeks ago. I say, "I don't pillow talk so please stop." If you know me personally then you're aware of how corny I am, my stupid ass ask, "So how do you practice safe sex?(knowing damn well that should have been addressed to me)" She said she was on the pill, but she got pregnant with her daughter while on it and I'm like "Fuck!" I'm literally just staring at the wall in disarray thinking of anything excuse of how she won't be pregnant.

I'm to the point where I'm on the calling people about bringing me a morning after pill so that I can place it in an Advil bottle since she told me she had a headache. Im not even sure if thats a crime, but I'm sure it is so i scratch that idea. I call one of my best friends in Memphis and she's telling me don't do that and to calm down and go to church and pray on it that morning. I tell the girl she has to leave, after she leaves my mind won't allow me to sleep or rest.

I'm up until its time for me to head to church and during prayer time I walked to the alter on my own for the first time. During prayer and everything I zoned out and I just cried and cried to GOD, telling him I wasn't ready for a baby with that one. I was a nervous wreck afterward for like two months.

I'm thinking of how much it would take for her to give up custody. I'm expecting the worst and thinking every possible situation that I could be in. It felt like my whole life was changing. I was thinking of all the things I wouldn't be able to get off my bucket list like; smoking on a foreign island, going to Mardi Gras, etc. Random Pregnancy scares and debt have to the most two things that I'm most fearful of.

Lucky she's one of those women who needs to announce to social networks that Aunt Flo visited. What a reliever.

I know it takes just one to say put a condom on, but just make sure you do it. Also if you don't trust them having your kids just leave them alone. That 10 secs of satisfaction from the nut isn't worth it. This was easily one of the scariest moments to ever happen to me. Safe sex is great sex, especially with upstanding women.