Between Heterosexual Privilege And It's Guilt

Heterosexual privilege sounds amazing, but when your heterosexual guilt gets you intoxicated with your feelings and it’s chased with religion then things get difficult. The easiest sin for me not break is not practicing homosexuality.

I feel that’s one of the reasons society can freely discriminates against gays. I feel as though gay discrimination is prevalent because it’s the easiest sin not to break for people. As a society we get so caught up in the theory of "good & bad," that we don't allow for any grey area to deem anything acceptable. I can recall being around 10 years old and my brother told me he had a gay co-worker, I vividly remember asking, "Did they fire her?" He explained that that's against the law, but as a child it seemed as though I was sub-consciously trained to believe that homosexuality was bad and an abomination not only to religion, but also to a stable society in general. Is God’s word to blame for these thoughts, or the religion that man is proselytizing towards us?

I’m notorious for biblical comments of, "I don't know the verse, but I know it's in there." I judge others even though I know it's against God's law, but I do it. I know I sin daily, but knowing the fact that I can repent gives me the thought that it will be forgiven. They say GOD is all knowing and makes no mistakes. Why would he make some gay when the act of homosexuality is supposedly against his word, but make majority of everyone else straight? Like in the book of JOB does he allow this to happen to test their faith? Seriously, if you know something is a sin, but you continually act on it is that sort of like your rebelling against GOD? Since I'm judging does GOD equally look down on me as he would gays?

Can I change my views on a lifestyle that I’m ignorant to? Why does this heterosexual privilege give me the constabulary theological justification to convey to others on how God wants them to act? We have conservatives and religious officials trying to exorcise people over what they feel is a decision. They try to use religion as a divine cure and treatment. So if God make no mistakes then why are we allowing man-made rewiring of God’s work? Why can’t homosexuals being allowed the same human privileges that I enjoy? The government says that they try to separate church from state, but how can one separate his religion from this sin in particular. How can we bridge the gap? Will GOD judge me for being cool with those of different sexual orientations if it’s supposedly against his word? However, the bible tells you to love all your neighbors though. These contradicting messages in a man written book continue to perpetrate these mixed feelings.

The struggle of trying to advocate for a lifestyle that I’m not involved may seem easy for those who are waving the different flags, in the streets marching, and consistently fighting for equality, but for a man that has nothing to gain it’s difficult to find the piece of the puzzle where you fit in. If you ask a majority American they will tell you that they are for equal rights for all, but I feel as though sub-consciously men in particular feel as if they are vocal advocates that they have a fear that gay men will be drawn to them. Rights should be for all people no matter who you are or the practices that you exercise, but you’d be a fool not notice that segregation among people of separate orientation is still segregated to a certain extinct. Is it possible to completely endorse a lifestyle, but still uncomfortable at times be surrounded by it, or even talking about?

Heterosexual privilege is very common even though you may not realize it. I can talk of sexual relations and I won’t be judge for it. The most that people will say is that the place where speaking on it isn’t appropriate. I’m not segregated due to my preference, I won’t get stared at while on dates because me taking a woman out is “normal.” I’m never looked at as the straight guy, I’m judged in my circumstances my character and ethics that I represented. I never have to explain the image in which GOD made me. All that seems well and good until you start feeling like you’re apart of the problem.

When you’re consistently telling yourself that gay equality is an issue that you shouldn’t be involved in because it’s not your struggle when does that make you just as guilty as those people protesting and screaming faggot? I don’t want to be that straight black guy marching surrounded by a bunch of rainbow colored flags. I don’t want to make others uncomfortable. Why should I care about helping gays live in a world that accepts them? It’s not my issue! You get those voices telling you that if you stand up for gays what will others think of you? Nobody wants to be the one suspected as the “closet faggot.” You get that feeling that you are allowing ignorance to roam free because you choose to silent your voice box due to fears of you receiving judgment that millions of others are murdered, are killing themselves, discriminated, and being ridiculed for.

How can I be the black man who fights for freedom of equality for those who share my pigmentation, but refuses to even stand up and say equality should be for all no matter the color or sexual preference? How can I accept gays being looked at in America as the lesser when there was a time when the openly treatment towards gays was openly practiced those who resemble me? Those who sit when the have the option to stand up are no better than the ones who scream “faggot”, “homo’s”, “dyke” etc.

Over the past few years I understand that we all come from the same creator and we all deserve the same chance at the same opportunities. Whenever we crack open room for discrimination in any place then we open the door for discrimination everywhere. No laws can change society’s views only thing that can change the way of the world is us. Once you take away the fear and hate you’d be surprise to find that love is underneath. That holy water that God made us has become poisoned. If we are judged, ridiculed, or accused of being a closet fag then it should give us no worries because equality for all no matter race, gender, sexual orientation are issues that need to be supported by all. Once you understand that aside from the right to walk down the aisle other rights are being violated by denying gays and lesbian’s rights, such as the economic factors such as extra taxes that have to be paid, the denial of tax breaks, and the difficulty of homeownership that can occur due not allowing a union between to prosper. Even this is one of countless number of sins broken daily in the bible sometimes you just put your personal views aside and support for the betterment of society. Isn’t this reason Jesus died anyway, for the sins of his people?