Sorry For the Lies

I've never took the opportunity or time to formally apologize for all the lies that I have told, or promises that I've broken towards GOD.

I am fully aware that GOD is all knowing, forgiving, and merciful. With he being all knowing I at times, more like at will take advantage of his love by making promises that I have no intentions of fulfilling. I make those promises to help me get out of a life jams. I may feel as though I'm fooling him, but in the end I look like the fool

I'm a firm advocate of not giving people second chances. I can at the drop of a dime can just off someone from my memory with no remorse, but for some reason after continous lie the lord always is there in my time of need.

It's a lot of folks who will swear up and down they will be in heaven, while their are others who can sit in the front rows each Sunday, but still may not go. I barely go to church, and I have done so much wrong in my 22 years that I fear where I'm going to go when my judgement day appears.

Everytime things are at the point where their is nothing I can do to mend the injuries that life has placed upon me your line is ringing from my calls, but when life seems that it can't get any better for me at that moment I'm never calling your line to tell you thank you.

At 3:05 am Wednesday, July 13, 2011 I'm finally realizing that I have been putting the wrong things in the forefront of my life while I place in the back burner, unless I'm in dire need. It seems as though I have all the time in the world to go on out of town trips, take women on dates, entertain women (who want nothing more of me than moments of my time), find different ways to mix ciroc, and a multitude of other things that I know you are aware. I know simply writing you a note doesn't do anything, but open up the possibly of another lie. Even though my actions some may feel I'm bullshitting, but I know down deep that you understand where my heart is and that I'm really trying to do right.